May 9, 2014
On Drones, Anti-Blackness in #BringBackOurGirls and Michelle Obama

I did a series for 40+ tweets on the issue of how brown people need to let black people lead the discussion on #BringBackOurGirls. A friend storified them here so you can read it all:

May 6, 2014
Phoenix (Update 1)

Here’s Phoenix. (Yes, I named her).

I got her over the weekend at the Sacramento Bonsai Club’s annual show. A friend gave her to me because he was unable to sell her. She was infested with spider mites, scale and the roots felt rotten as the soil was old and had hardened and wouldn’t drain.

The one on the left is before I sprayed off the spider mites and scale off and she’s still in the water-logged soil. Already took care of the bugs the night I brought her home. This morning I went and got some good bonsai soil mix from Maruyama’s nursery, cleaned the moss and old soil (which stank like hell) this afternoon and repotted her. Also, cleaned up the pot and positioned her trunk so that it faces inwards. It looks more aesthetically pleasing and lets the roots which are mostly on the right side, get more room to grow.

I still have to prune away some of the dead foliage, but I can do that later, too. I haven’t styled the branches, yet, and I let the nibari (the surface roots) get covered by soil even though that’s part of bonsai and is an integral part of the natural beauty of trees because it’s more important that she survives first and I don’t want to stress her out. Styling can begin in a year or two. I’m kinda attached to her that’s why so much work went into saving her.

We’ll know in two weeks or so if she makes it, but I have a feeling that she will. :)

May 4, 2014

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April 20, 2014
Happy Muslims and Digusting Responses

I live in an alternate universe, so I had no idea what the song “Happy" was. Although I do know who Pharrell is thanks to Daft Punk - and the fact that he’s a never-aging vampire. However, before I got a chance to listen to the song, I was confronted by an ugly “controversy” involving Muslims. As the song reaches the heights of popularity, more and more people are making videos with the song and dancing and well… being happy! So some Muslims in the United Kingdom decided they, too, wanted to express their happiness and made a video of themselves dancing.

And all hell broke loose.

The participants in the video are being condemned left and right by every kind of Muslim, from the ordinary to respected religious leaders for this flagrant “satanic” act. Not surprisingly, the women in the video are especially targeted for their indecency. What got my attention was a long Facebook post by a certain Muslim scholar who recently had to apologize for sexism. The post is disgusting and as my friend Imran Garda put it so brilliantly, “Dawkins should stop tweeting and just link to this post whenever he wants to convince people to become atheist.”

This rant was just a microcosm of what’s being spewed online about the video as I looked and looked, so I decided to watch the video and listen to the song for the first time.

As I watched the video, wallahi, I started crying. Here was everything that’s good about Islam crammed into a four minute video. It succinctly expresses what Islam stands for: diversity, equality, respect, compassion, caring… above all, happiness. To see men and women, black, brown and white, young and old, rich and poor all stand together and expressing their oneness is the closest you could come to telling the message of Islam to a wider audience. As I wiped away my tears, I was struck by how offended I had been by the responses to the video after watching it.

There are so many things wrong with the responses that I could write a book about them, but let me just dissect some of the statements from the post I referenced above to explain why the responses are so troubling. I would add that I don’t know the author of the post personally, I’m just offended by what he wrote and the only reason I’m taking his writing to explain this is that it’s representative of almost the entirety of responses. Also, I’m withholding his name, but I’m sure most of you know who I am talking about. So here’s a point by point rebuttal:

1. The music is catchy because Iblis might have personally helped create it.

Loud and clear, brothers and sisters: If it makes you happy and makes you want to dance with happiness, beware, it’s Iblis. I guess than if something makes you upset, cry or wail, it comes from Allah - rule of opposites?

2. “My first reaction when I saw sisters dancing like that was just how much these ladies love to talk about objectification and being stereotyped and feminism and all that bakwas, but they play a different game in real life.‬”

Bakwas in Urdu (the national language of Pakistan) loosely translates to bullshit. So feminism is bullshit. Complaining about objectification is bullshit. Being upset about being stereotyped is bullshit. Simply because some Muslim women were happy and decided to express their happiness in a couple of casual dance moves. This sort of a mindset doesn’t come after watching a four minute video. It comes from deeply-rooted misogyny and the inability to empathize or even listen to Muslim women and their legitimate demands.

3. “The image which came to mind after a few moments was of slave masters watching their slave girls/boys amuse, dance and entertain them as they twirl their moustaches happily. Yes this is a metaphor and our brothers and sisters are not slave girls, but what is worse is when a Muslim makes that conscious decision that what they have from their Deen and their values just isn’t “good enough” and thus “let’s use the medium of popular culture instead regardless of whether it fits an Islamic ethos or not”. This is of course the real slavery. The slavery of the mind. The music etc wasn’t so depressing for me; it was watching a people fall even more into subservience.”

This conjecture is not only deeper than it should be, it expects something from Muslims that is entirely unreasonable. Critics basically want 1.5 billion Muslims to be a giant monolith where there is no individuality, no creativity and no personal difference of opinion. It’s not that we are slaves to a White master - American culture, especially American music - owes a great debt to African-American music and the singer of this song himself is an African-American. It’s that the critics want us to be slaves to a few muftis, mavlanas and sheikhs whose opinions are to shape every decision we ever make.

This is the slavery of the hanging sword of the fatwas and internet opinions. Whenever a Muslim or a group of Muslims expresses themselves in any way, they’re judged directly or indirectly by every Muslim who has a mouth and increasingly, a Facebook account and fingers. We’ve almost completely given up self-criticism in favor of criticism of the other. Instead of every Muslim asking him/herself how they can be a better person, many of us spend our time online, belittling other people for their choices.

This is entirely moronic.

We make up more than 20% of the world’s population and come from different cultures and different parts of the world. Being Muslim is a great part of our identity, but we have other identities and affinities as well. To attempt to force us all to look like mirror images of each other in every way almost sounds scary.

4. Any women who claim that females dancing is not provocative or sexual, is either naïve or just plain miskeen. And any man whom claims the same, is, well, lying. Ladies, you could dance like Peter Crouch and men would find that sexual! Men don’t think like you. You lift an elbow out and just wiggle your head forget about anything else and you just provocation-ed off the provocation-meter. You want to do that, keep it for your fella’s eyes only please.

This is the part that truly disgusted me. Let me put this simply: what people espousing this idea are telling you is that men are all hyper-sexual hyenas so you have to hide from us. Now some might say, “But he’s only talking about dancing!” Friends, a while ago, I wrote an article about sexual harassment, here’s a comment a Muslimah wrote under my article:

"The most astounding experience I have ever had was in the Holy city of Mecca while praying to Allah around the Holy Ka’ba’. I was sexually harassed in the one place where both men and women can worship together which is while walking in Tawa’af around the Ka’ba. If a man resorts to perverse thoughts in such a dignified and Holy place which is said to be the Home of Allah Almightey, then why would he refrain from doing so in his day to day life-regardless of whether the women are wearing hijab or not."

The problem isn’t that some Muslim women dance or sing or don’t wear the hijab and awaken the sexual predators in some of us. The problem is that some men are sexual predators. They will prey on Muslim and non-Muslim alike no matter what they wear, what they do and where they are. The idea that somehow all men are that way is a clever trick. An infuriating deceit that some men have perpetrated for centuries to keep women confined to their homes. They make women fear all men - regardless of who we are and how we act - as a way to make them afraid of leaving their homes to study, to work, to be part of a profession.

This dirty attempt at victim-blaming is even more hurtful because that’s what Muslim men and women face already from Islamophobes. To see Muslims themselves claim that Muslim men are so sexual they can’t stop sexualizing all and every woman is beyond disturbing.

5. It’s amazing just how strong that feeling of inferiority amongst liberal and secular Muslims is. That is definitely the major concern here, not the music or dancing. Folks used to call it a inferiority complex. That’s outdated now. We need to call it an “inferiority crisis”.

So Muslims just being normal people is an “inferiority crisis”. I have read other responses that are attempting to make it look like the participants in the video were attempting to educate people about Islam or Muslims. Why can’t Muslims just be? Why should everything we ever do has to be viewed in the prism of everyone’s version of Islam - which as we all know there are thousands of and each one claims to be representing the “true” Islam.

I’d like the people saying this to say this to the African-American Muslims in the video, dancing to the music of a fellow African-American and ask them, “Brother, do you feel inferior to White people that’s why you are enjoying your own culture?”

6. “We’ve basically lost all meaning for what the word hijab means. I can’t even be bothered to explain this issue again, the fact that hijab is a state, not just a piece of cloth on the head. Anyway, whatever. This isn’t about the women anyway, this is about the mindset of *all* who support such things.”

This is another standard response. “OMG! Your hijab is all wrong!”

What exactly is that to you or anyone else? Who died and made you the “Hijab Police”? Wallah billah thuma tillah, if Muslim men just stopped writing about what Muslim women should or shouldn’t wear, we could probably build the Great Wall of China ten times over in a week. However, since this issue came up, it suffices to post this video by a brilliant Muslim woman who has finally found the solution to our hijab-related problems: watch this three-minute video on how to make the PERFECT Hijab and keep reading:

I hope that solves that forever.

7. “I love seeing happy people. I loved their smiles in this video. I just wish I could see them so happy without the music and dancing. Surely we can do that? Although in fairness, perhaps some folks can’t? Genuine question.”

Here comes the controlling Muslims. “I want you to be happy, but I want you to be happy the way I tell you to be happy.” Also, who said they’re showing their happiness to you? If you can’t appreciate their happiness and be happy for them, go do something that makes you happy instead of attempting to ruin their fun. I guess your happiness comes from making other people feel miserable.

8. “The Yanks are looking at this video and thinking, “Erm, so what’s exactly the issue here folks? Who did what wrong?!””

This response basically attempts to ridicule by proxy. “Oh, look, the Americans are laughing at how weird my fellow Muslim brothers and sisters look…” So far I haven’t seen a single “Yank” respond to this video in a negative way - only Muslims.

Also, as someone who lives in America, I find this sly stereotypicalization of Americans insulting. Whatever happened to respect being a Muslim trait?

9. “To those who are disappointed with all this, don’t even try for a second to criticise music and dancing. Once you’ve gone down that route, it’s more than just a poisoned chalice. It’s professional suicide. Everyone is so happy inside, and suddenly you’re telling them they shouldn’t be? You will NEVER win this argument, and frankly it’s no biggie anyway. Emotional ignorance of the rules of Allah is the most difficult to discuss, so don’t waste your time on it.”

Emotional ignorance of the rules of Allah? Let me relate a story to you.

There once lived a man who had lived a life so full of sin that anyone who knew him had no hope for his salvation. It happened that one day, he was passing through a desert and got to a well. He saw a dog, dying of thirst next to the well so close to water, but unable to reach it. The man’s heart melted. He attempted to draw water from the well, but there was no rope or bucket. He opened up his turban, tied it to his shoe, lowered it in the well and drew water for a dog - a dog, brothers and sisters. He quenched a dog’s a thirst and in return, Allah was so pleased with this single act of kindness that all his sins were forgiven.

What you see, brothers and sisters, is a singular focus on music, dancing, hijab, movies, clothes, beards, caps, tasbeehs… you name it. Little do I see from these internet preachers about racism. About misogyny. About institutionalized injustice. About poverty. About child labor. Islam didn’t just come here to ban things. It came to tell us to treat our neighbor like ourselves. To not see our brother as black or brown or white, but as a human being. It came to tell us that we should prefer going hungry while sharing food with the poor over stuffing our bellies with fried chicken while our neighbor’s children cry for a mouthful of boiled rice.

Emotional ignorance of the rules of Allah? How about ignorance of the problems facing Muslims? Our problem isn’t music or dancing of a few Muslims. Our problem is systematic oppression against us in countries where we are the majority. It’s the threat of racism that is dividing us amongst ourselves. It’s the threat of poverty that takes thousands of Muslim lives each year. It’s the police harassing us and bugging our mosques in the West. The list is too long.

Why can’t we spend more time on those?

10. “For those who say that scholars says music etc is good and allowed: firstly forget all the so called scholars and Shaykhs and Imams in the West who are not much more than transmitters of fatwas and opinions. No disrespect to us all but let us all recognise our reality. If we were to see the actual real scholarly voices that permit the use of music, and you would be able to count them on one hand frankly and that doesn’t diminish our respect for them by the way, then I say this: from this group would be Shaykh Abdullah Judai’ and Sh Yusuf al-Qardhawi. I would love to see their reaction to seeing what happens in this video and then ask them, “Shaykh, we make stuff like this because we follow your fatwa that music is allowed.” I think you’d better prepare to get slapped lol.”

Yes, Muslims are children - the whole 1.5 billion of us. We cannot read the Quran. We cannot understand the Ahadith. We cannot read opinions of Ulema. Better yet, we cannot make up our own minds about what Islam says and doesn’t and how we should live our lives and how we shouldn’t - even in our personal lives.

Instead, let’s listen to Shaykh Yusuf al-Qaradhawi, who is a guest of the government of Qatar and lives on their dime. The same government of Qatar that’s hosting the 2018 Soccer World Cup for the construction of which, thousands of poor people from South Asia will die in the next few years - 900 already have, and many of them Muslim. Instead of preaching to us, al-Qaradhawi should die of shame.

Or should we listen to the Ulema that live on the dime of the King of Saudi Arabia who treats a country of 30 million people like personal property? I think the point is taken? Or maybe we should listen to internet preachers who victim-blame our sisters and claim that all men can do is lust after women and never respect them?

11. “I love creativity. I think Muslims have so much to offer. I just hope and pray it can be done without the need to have to use what everyone else values, as opposed to what WE value. Or at least SHOULD value I guess I should say.”

So to these people, Muslims are culture-less drones. We’ve never created music. We’ve never created dance. We’ve never painted. Never written poetry. Never taken part in creating any form of art. All art is “other” and if we attempt to express our happiness or sadness through any art form, we’re just imitating them. What bakwas is this?!

12. Remember that above all, the resulting video is one which involved *personal* sin and it was concerning *fiqh* as opposed to anything else more serious. This is most definitely not belittling sin by this statement, but just reminding us all that we do have much bigger problems amongst Muslims to focus on such as what we actual believe in, and whether we consider Allah’s requirements to be divine enough so as to be protected from our desires and flawed intellects. There is a chasm between saying (a) Allah couldn’t have said this or made that halal or haram, and saying (b) I know Allah said that but I’m struggling with it.
Struggling is good, keep up that struggle. Denying is bad, drop that bakwas otherwise you’ll be dropped in the next life. No, you won’t be dropping it like it’s hot. You’ll be *dropped* somewhere hot.
May Allah protect us all and forgive us and guide us all, my sinful self before anyone else. Ameen.

It’s the same mantra - focusing on personal as opposed to wider, societal ills that are plaguing all of us - as usual. Anyway, here’s another story.

They say early Muslim scholar and Sufi Rabia al-Basri was once walking towards an unknown destination outside the city of Baghdad. Eminent Muslim scholar and her disciple Hasan al-Basri - Yes, Hasan al-Basri was a woman’s pupil! - saw her and approached her. As he got closer, he noticed she was carrying a torch in one hand and a cup of water in another. Puzzled, he asked her where she was going and what were the torch and water for?

She replied: “I’m going to burn Allah’s paradise with this fire. Then, I’ll extinguish the fires of hell with this water.” Further puzzled, Hasan again inquired as he figured there would be some hikmah in this, “But why would you do such a thing?”

Rabia again calmly replied: “Because people have turned the love of the divine into a business. We don’t love our creator or obey his rules because we love him. Rather, we are afraid of burning in hell and missing out on paradise so we do what we do towards that end.”

When everything else fails - from calling all men hypersexualized hyenas, to ignoring societal problems, to making a mountain of a mole, how about some hellfire to make you tremble to your core? This is what today’s Muslim preachers and internet scholars have turned into. Businessmen of our religion who’ll tell you what to do and what not to do and then resort to moral authorities who live in comfort, thanks to money flowing from the Gulf’s petrodollars.

I’m sure our creator prefers one Rabia over 1.5 billion of us.

13. Whatever is sinful or potentially sinful or at least doubtful, should be kept to yourself. Sing with your hairdryer in the mirror. Dance your socks off in the privacy of your bedroom. Chill at home as undressed as you want. Allah is covering you right at that monent.
But once you bring it out like this, go public, and be happy about it, then Allah has uncovered you. And thus you have lost protection. And once you lose HIS protection, then, well, Allahul-Musta‘an.

The pedantry at display here regarding dancing and music is so exceptional that I am no longer going to skirt around the issue. However, before we talk about the “satanic” singing and dancing, let’s read a Hadith, which is narrated by Hazrat Aisha and recorded by Imam Bukhari:

"Allah’s Apostle returned from a journey when I had placed a curtain of mine having pictures over (the door of) a chamber of mine. When Allah’s Apostle saw it, he tore it and said, "The people who will receive the severest punishment on the Day of Resurrection will be those who try to make the like of Allah’s creations." So we turned it (i.e., the curtain) into one or two cushions."

Now, please tell me why this scholar has a picture of him plastered everywhere? Does he not fear losing the protection of Allah? What about the thousands upon of thousands of eminent Muslim scholars who go on television and similarly take and post their pictures on and offline? Even the most fundamentalist of Muslims these days - including the Taliban and al-Qaeda - do not shirk from it. Do they not fear hellfire? Maybe they do, maybe they don’t. Maybe they don’t know Islam well enough to pay attention to everything.

Though, the better answer as to why this is is: besides building idols, pictures were one of the ways early pagan Arabs depicted their gods and goddesses. In fact, the walls of Ka’ba had many such paintings before the Prophet removed them after the taking of Mecca. The prohibition on pictures of living things was more to stem the tide of returning to the religions before Islam as well as safeguarding Islam from becoming like those religions.

Now as to singing and dancing. The prohibition on singing and dancing itself came about because early Meccans, especially the very rich leaders of Mecca, were very fond of wasting wealth on alcohol, singing and dancing. So pervasive was this practice that when the 1,000 Meccans came to fight the 313 Muslims of Medina at al-Badr, they had with them singers and dancers and alcohol. They partied all night before they went to fight the Prophet and his companions. We know the result.

These singers and specifically dancers, were women. Islam wanted to elevate women from poverty, lack of rights and discrimination back then. Many of them like many today, faced with systemic injustice, were unable to feed their families without giving in to the whims of the ultra-rich men. Islam also wanted to encourage Muslims to spend their money helping the poor and needy and not on partying. Hence, the ban and also, hence, Islam attempted to give women a share of the property, banning the killing of young daughters and encouraging Muslims to marry widows.

That’s why even today, I don’t judge a woman who sells her body or dances naked in front of the gawking eyes of drunk men to feed her children or herself. God knows, we’ve constructed societies where poverty, discrimination, and systemic and systematic misogyny closes all doors in the face of women and racism and bigotry do the same for men. The result is violent crime on the part of the men and prostitution on the part of women.

Even if they’re doing it because they have fun, I leave judgment to our maker. I am and you, too, should be concerned more about our own actions, our own short-comings and our owns sins. Before we attempt to impart judgments based on the Quran and Ahadith regarding personal shortcomings and what we owe our maker, let’s make sure we’re not being judged by our maker because of our actions. Let’s focus on what we owe our fellow brothers and sisters as Allah might forgive us for shortcomings towards him, but it is up to our brothers and sisters whether they will forgive us for the sins we commit against them.

May our maker give us all the strength to be like the brother in the ad I’m posting below, for truly, if we could follow the actions shown by him, salvation will not be far.

April 20, 2014
To the Pain of Withholding Tears

My eyes hurt,

From withholding tears that want to break free,

But I’m afraid of letting them go,

For every time I close my eyes,

Your picture appears before my eyes,

As they wash over that picture,

These tears have touched your face,

Caressed your arms,

Run through your hair,

They hold a part of you in them,

I’m gripping them with my eyelids as tightly as I I’d hold you in my arms if I could.

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April 19, 2014
The Pain of Not Knowing

The never-ending pain of not knowing,

Has become me,


As the porcelain figurine of your memory turns above my heart,

Every breath I take,

Turns into sad music,

Each note a word,

That we would have spoken to each other but didn’t,

They hug me,

They try to envelop me in their warmth,

And as I let myself go,

The pain subsides with me.

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April 7, 2014
A veil doesn’t mean ignorance. Neither does it mean lack of agency. Afghan women voting.

A veil doesn’t mean ignorance. Neither does it mean lack of agency. Afghan women voting.

March 30, 2014
Why Some Muslim Men Love Khadija and Ayesha

By Josh Shahryar

In the past couple of days, I’ve been witness to something that has angered me beyond measure. Some Muslim women started a hashtag on Twitter to talk about their issues. Why Twitter you ask? Well, because women’s issues are only marginally covered in the broader media unless it’s somehow connected to “saving” them or hijab or Femen. Under this hashtag - #IfKhadijaCanDoIt -, they were attempting to talk about the issues and problems facing them in current times.

As you guessed it, some Muslim men attempted to hijack it and infuse it with their own reactionary ideas of how Muslim women should live their lives. Below is a Twitter tirade I had last night that was directed at these men. For the most part, it’s what I tweeted as is, but I have added some new words and edited the tweets because in the heat of my anger, I forgot to type right at times. Here goes:

Dear Certain Muslim Men:

I’m tired and fed up with the double standards you have when it comes to Muslim women.

Why do I sense that there are two Islams for some of us? Why do I feel like the Islam for men is different from the Islam for women? On the one hand, there’s the cosmopolitan, inclusive, open Islam for men. It’s political, spiritual, religious. On the other, we’ve constructed an Islam for women that is only concerned with how they should belong to us in some way - whether as mothers, sisters, daughters or wives.

When we talk about Muslim men’s rights, we talk about everything - employment, immigration, health, education, workplace discrimination, systematic racism, racial profiling, insecurity… you name it, we talk about it. The Islam for men is politically charged. We use it to tackle issues that we face daily in our lives as independent beings with inalienable rights.

However, the Islam we’ve constructed for women serves only one purpose: to train women to be “good” mothers, wives, daughters and sisters. We don’t look at women’s problems in the same way as we do our own. We treat them like they’re far less dire than the hurdles facing us. When women attempt to get us to take them seriously, we patronize them with words like, “This is not as important as X, Y and Z facing the community right now.” As if women don’t have to struggle with issues we do.

We pretend like education, health care, immigration, racism etc… don’t affect them. Like they are only men’s issues. Some of us push hard to stunt their inclusion in our political struggles. When we allow them to join, we tokenize their presence. We’re happy to have them in full hijab, or with purdahs at rallies to show off how accepting of women’s rights we are. We like to talk about it to media. We showcase women in our political struggle, but behind closed doors, we’re just as prejudiced against them as the system that oppresses them.

We ignore that not only do they have to face every single problem we do, but they have to struggle against systemic and systematic misogyny, too, - not to mention far higher levels of sexual violence and almost all the sexual harassment.

Obviously, the worst of us want women to be confined to our houses - their role only to support us physically, spiritually and sexually. However, even among the best of us Muslim men, some treat women only as good as they can serve us in some way. Even when it comes to our political struggle, we include women to raise awareness about issues that are hurting us men, but when it comes to their problems, some of us abandon them. We don’t stand behind their voices. The worst don’t even listen.

Domestic violence? Their problem.
Lack of access to or cramped spaces and humiliation at mosques? Their problem.
Sexual harassment? Their problem.
Sexism at work? Their problem.
Misrepresentation in the media? Their problem.

If it’s something that pertains to only Muslim women, we pretend like it doesn’t even exist. We’re ready to defend ourselves when some Islamophobic nutjob collectively accuses us of treating Muslim women harshly, but when it comes to Muslim women being treated harshly by others, we don’t even notice. When Muslim women fight with us for our rights, they’re welcome. When it’s their rights, they stand alone. It’s like some Muslim men - even educated, cosmopolitan, “enlightened” men - feel shamed by supporting Muslim women.

But this… this angers me the most. This phrase that gets thrown around by some men when they’re confronted with women who want their rights, “Islam already gives women all the rights she needs.” This. Is. Bull****.

Brothers, when we are beat up by cops in NY, do we say, “Islam already gives men all the rights we need.” ??? Brothers, when our mosques are bugged by the FBI, do we say, “Islam already gives men all the rights we need.” ??? What about when we’re not hired because we’re brown? “Islam already gives men all the rights we need,” ??? No?

Brothers: Why is it that when Muslim men face racism and discrimination, we don’t talk about the prophet’s companions Othman or Omar? Brothers: Why is it that when the police uses violence against us, we don’t talk about Abuzar or Talha? Brothers: Seriously, if Islam is for all time, then why are we not able to see our issues in the prism of 1,400 years ago?

Oh, but just you wait till women’s issues come up. We all suddenly become scholars of early Islamic history.

Brothers, the only thing some of us can tell women is: “Well, just look at Khadija and Ayesha. That should solve your problem.”

Tell me brothers: How can looking at Khadija help a Muslim woman who’s being denied access to education by the state? How does looking at Ayesha help a Muslim who is being sexually harassed on the way to work? How should a Muslim woman who’s being discriminated against at work follow Fatima to solve her problem? You can’t because you and I both know why we use Khadija and Ayesha and Fatima when it comes to women’s issues.

We tell Muslim their problems are solved by women from early Islamic history because they were all housewives.

That’s what some of us want Muslim women to be, brothers. We want them to only serve our needs. Their existence tied to us. We don’t actually want to support Muslim women in their struggle against issues facing them. We just want to one up them while acting smart about it. But to live a life like Khadija or Ayesha, you need to have a husband like Mohammed, which I don’t see any of us being like. Even if Muslim women choose to be housewives - and many do - they’ll still struggle against patriarchy - at home.

The truth is, when some men tell Muslim women they should follow Khadija or Ayesha, what we really mean is: “Follow men.” Guess what: If there was a school in Mecca in 7th century AD, I’m sure Khadija and Ayesha would’ve liked to go to study, too. Muslim women would’ve become nurses, doctors, and teachers, too, if those institutions existed. If all the Muslim women should do is what women in 7th century AD Mecca did, then why are men doing different things?

Why don’t we men take camels up and down the Mecca-Syria trail since that’s what the best Muslim men back then did? Name one male companion of the prophet who was a doctor or an engineer or a college professor. One. (The answer by the way is zero). Better yet, why aren’t we dreaming of becoming sheep herders when we grow up because that’s what the prophet grew up doing?

Why do some Muslim men want to be doctors, engineers and college professors unlike the prophet and his companions? Isn’t this bid’ah and fitnah? But when Muslim women want to teach, or treat patients or design cars some of us start shouting, “KHADIJA! AYESHA! BID’AH! FITNAH!” And best of all: “Islam already gives women all the rights she needs…”

You know what that translates to? “Make me food. Suck my d***. Raise my kids.”

The truth is, some of us use Khadija and Ayesha and Fatima’s names to enslave their daughters - nothing more, nothing less. Worse, we use Islam to justify our own inadequacies, our own prejudices and our own misogyny and contempt for women. No, Islam doesn’t give women all the rights they need because some of these rights didn’t even exist back then. There were no constitutions, no social contracts and no inalienable rights.

That’s why Islam isn’t the be all end all for us men and our problems and rights in contemporary society. That’s why our banners decrying racial profiling by New York Police Department don’t include the words, “Islam already gives us all the rights we need. Please continue to oppress us because we’re very happy.”

So what is the solution? How can we men help? Here’s a revolutionary idea: listen to Muslim women.

Muslim women know their problems and the solutions to them. They’re working on it. All they need from us is support. They’re fighting against the system denying them their rights and you know, their issues are too complex for a guy - like me and you - to understand on our own. We have to learn - from them. After they’ve made us understand, we have to ask them how we can support them. Not support them the way we would like to.

Most of all, we men shouldn’t try to come up with answers: Muslim women already have most of them and are working on the rest. Our job is when women come out to implement their solutions to stand behind them or beside them. Not in front of them. They’re already in the trenches for their rights and for solving their issues. They need amplification of their voices not obstruction. We can stand with them against the state, the religious establishment, even our own brothers - just like they stand with us when our rights are at stake. Or we can ignore them, but even ignoring them - at this critical juncture - is better than beating the Khadija and Ayesha drum.

Not only does it demean Khadija and Ayesha and show our contempt for women, it also gives the system extra ammunition to oppress women. After all, if Muslim men don’t want women to have their rights, why should the states care?

Finally, next time someone asks you why you’re speaking for women’s rights or joining their rallies, tell them because:

"If one of you sees something wrong, let him change it with his hand; if he cannot, then with his tongue; if he cannot, then with his heart and this is the weakest faith." - Prophet Mohammed (PBUH)

March 26, 2014


Just as you’re about to fall asleep,

Or have,

You spontaneously wake yourself up,

As if you’d been falling,

But you aren’t,

That’s how I remember you,

Just as I’ve distracted myself of your existence completely,

I suddenly realize,

That you do,

And that I’ve fallen.

November 10, 2013
I’m Not OK

Whenever I’m hit by something,

Something hard,

You know how things hit you randomly from the forever churning tornado that’s life?

Things like that,

When they hit me,

I stand in front of a mirror,

Any mirror,

In the bathroom,

Glass in the window when it’s dark outside and light in my room,

Or a simple puddle of water,

And I tell myself,

I’m OK…

Things will be OK!

I’ve left many winters behind me,

And may have many summers ahead,

Been hit hard,

Harder than you think,

Harder than I thought I was able to withstand,

So hard I wonder how I came through

But I know,

That somehow,

No matter how bad things get,

No matter how hard I’m hit,

I’ll always have my reflection,

To remind me,

That I’m OK…

Things will be OK!


Things are not OK,

They haven’t been since I learned the meaning of the word,

Since I learned that I could speak,

To people,

And to my own self in a mirror,

And for a long time I wondered,


How is it that I’m never OK,

How is it that I lie to myself so honestly,

And then lean back on a couch and take a deep breath,

Knowing, yet knowing that I’m wrong,

That I’m OK,

That things will be OK!

As I looked at the stars tonight,

And searched for the moon beyond the buildings, and trees and hills and smog,

I reminded myself again,

That I’m OK,


I was without you,

Sure I’m OK,

But at night?

With only the stars?


How am I OK only when you’re all not here?

Because when you are with me,

And you’re not OK,

Even if you are the neighbor’s dog,

Or the guy who helps me out when my train ticket isn’t letting me into the platform,

Or the woman in China who pressed the button that printed the letters on this keyboard,

Or the tree that just fell somewhere in a rainforest no one wants to save,

When you exist around me and I sense that you’re miserable,

That you suffer,

How can I be OK?

How can things be OK?

They are not,

They never will be,

I’m not the moon,

I’m not the uncaring smog that hides the moon,

My existence only has a meaning when you exist in it,

And my existence refuses to feel that things are fine,

When you’re not,

No mirror can make it right,

No words can remove the knowledge,

And not lies can cure the guilt,

So tonight,

I stood in front of the mirror,

And told myself,


That we’re not OK,

That things are not OK,

But they will be,

We have work to do.

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